Okay, so I wanted to share a bit about my recent run-in with the Four of Coins during one of my personal readings. It wasn’t for anything major, just a general check-in I do sometimes when things feel a bit… sticky.
I remember shuffling the deck, really just trying to clear my head. Work had been stressful, felt like I was juggling too much, and honestly, I was worried about dropping the ball, specifically on budget stuff. So, I pulled a single card, hoping for some clarity. And bam, there it was: the Four of Coins.
My first reaction? A bit of an internal groan. You see the guy on the card, right? Clutching those coins like his life depends on it. One on his head, one under each foot, one held tight to his chest. He looks solid, stable, but also totally rigid. Stuck.
So, I sat with that image for a bit. Didn’t immediately jump to the book meaning. I just looked at him. What was I holding onto so tightly?
My Process with the Card
Here’s what I did next:
- Observation: I noted the tight grip, the closed-off posture. He’s not interacting with anything around him. His focus is solely on keeping what he has.
- Connection: I thought about my current situation. That budget thing at work, yeah, that was part of it. I was guarding the numbers fiercely, maybe too fiercely, scared of any change or unexpected expense. But it felt bigger than that.
- Reflection: I realized I was doing this in other areas too. Holding onto old ways of doing things, resistant to suggestions from colleagues. Even at home, I noticed I was being overly cautious about spending, questioning every little purchase, even necessary ones. It wasn’t about being responsible; it felt more like fear. Fear of loss, fear of instability.
It felt like the card was showing me a mirror. Security is good, but was I building walls instead of foundations? This guy on the card, he’s secure, sure, but he also can’t move. He can’t reach out, can’t receive anything new because his hands are full, and he’s literally blocking himself off.
I spent some time just thinking about that rigidity. Where was it coming from? Mostly fear, I admitted to myself. Fear of repeating past mistakes where resources were scarce. Understandable, but maybe not helpful right now.
What Came After
Seeing the Four of Coins didn’t magically solve everything. But it made me pause and consciously check my motivations. Over the next few days, I tried to loosen my grip, just a little.
- At work, I actively listened to a colleague’s suggestion about reallocating some funds, even though my first instinct was to shut it down. We actually found a better way to manage things.
- At home, I agreed to a small, fun expense we’d been putting off. It felt good, not reckless.
- Mentally, I tried to be more open to the idea that change doesn’t always mean disaster.
It wasn’t easy. That urge to control, to hold tight, is strong sometimes. But the card was a good reminder. It showed me the shadow side of stability – how it can turn into stagnation if you’re not careful. It’s not just about holding onto money; it’s about holding onto control, ideas, security blankets, sometimes to your own detriment.
So yeah, that was my recent practice with the Four of Coins. Not the most uplifting card initially, but definitely a practical nudge to check in on why I’m holding on and whether it’s truly serving me. It’s about finding that balance between security and being open enough to actually live.
