My Sit-Down with the Cards Today
Felt a bit heavy today, you know? Like something needed to wrap up, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. That feeling when you know a chapter’s closing. So, I thought, right, let’s get the cards out and see what they have to say about this whole ‘ending’ business. Not in a scary way, more like, what needs to be cleared out.
So, first things first, I went and grabbed my tarot deck. It’s an old one, pretty worn, feels comfortable in my hands. Found my usual spot on the floor, away from distractions. Just needed some quiet space to think.
I spent a good few minutes just shuffling. Didn’t have a super specific question, more like holding onto that feeling of needing an ending, asking for a bit of guidance on what needs to go. Just kept shuffling and breathing, trying to get grounded.
Decided against doing a big fancy spread. Sometimes that just confuses me more. I just wanted one clear message. So, I cut the deck into three piles, then put them back together. Spread the cards out face down and just let my hand hover over them for a second. Picked the one that felt ‘right’.
What Came Up
Turned it over. And you know what? It wasn’t the actual Death card. Sometimes you expect the literal thing, right? Nope. I pulled the Eight of Cups.
Okay, so I looked at the picture. This figure walking away from these stacked cups. Leaving them behind. They look perfectly fine, those cups, maybe representing things that were once fulfilling or good. But the person is walking away, heading towards the unknown, towards the mountains under the moon.
Sitting with that, it really hit me. It wasn’t about some big dramatic ‘death’ or ending forced upon me. It felt more like a choice. A conscious decision to walk away from something that, while maybe okay, just isn’t fulfilling anymore. Leaving behind the ‘good enough’ to search for something deeper, something more meaningful, even if it means stepping into the unknown.
- It made me think about a project I’ve been involved in. It’s fine, pays the bills, but my heart’s just not in it anymore.
- Seeing that card felt like permission, almost. Permission to acknowledge that it’s okay to move on from things, even if they aren’t terrible.
- It’s an ending, for sure, but a quieter, more personal one. More about emotional or spiritual dissatisfaction leading to a necessary departure.
Feeling Afterward
Honestly, I felt a sense of quiet understanding after that. It wasn’t a loud, crashing end like maybe the Tower or even the Ten of Swords might suggest. It was more subtle. The Eight of Cups felt like it was saying, ‘You know what you need to do. You know what you need to leave behind. It’s time to start walking.’
So, yeah. Didn’t get the ‘Death’ card when I was focusing on endings, but the Eight of Cups provided the clarity I needed. It’s about choosing to move on, to let go of what no longer serves you emotionally or spiritually. A necessary ‘death’ of a situation, I guess, but one initiated by choice rather than external force. Felt pretty relevant to where I’m at right now. Just wanted to share how that little session went.
