Okay, so I’ve been diving deeper into Tarot lately, and today I decided to focus on one card: the Four of Pentacles. I wanted to see how it resonated with me personally, rather than just reading about its general meaning.
First, I grabbed my favorite deck – the one with the really vibrant artwork. I shuffled the cards, really taking my time, trying to clear my head and just focus on the present moment. Then, I laid out a simple three-card spread: past, present, future. Just to give myself some context, you know?
I flipped over the present card, and there it was: the Four of Pentacles. I stared at it for a good few minutes. This guy, sitting there, clutching those coins so tightly. It definitely felt familiar.
I grabbed my journal and started jotting down my immediate thoughts. What came to mind first was my current work situation. I’ve been holding on so tightly to my current projects, afraid to delegate, afraid to let go of control. It’s like I’m hoarding all the tasks, and it’s actually making me more stressed, not less.
Digging Deeper
Then, I started thinking about my finances. I’m pretty good at saving, but sometimes I think I get a little too focused on it. Like, I’ll skip out on fun things with friends because I’m so worried about sticking to my budget. The Four of Pentacles felt like a mirror, reflecting that tendency back at me.
- Holding on tightly
- Controlling my finances
- Skipping social events for saving
I also realized it’s not just about money or work. I can be pretty possessive in my relationships, too. Not in a jealous way, but more like… I struggle to give people space. I want to be close, to be needed, and that can sometimes push people away, even though it’s the opposite of what I intend.
My reflection
So, after spending a good hour with this card, scribbling in my journal, and really letting the imagery sink in, I started to see a pattern. The Four of Pentacles, for me, is a reminder to loosen my grip. To trust that letting go a little – whether it’s control at work, money anxieties, or my need for closeness – won’t actually lead to disaster. It might even create space for something better to come in. It was a good session. I feel I understand the card, and myself, a bit more.
