Okay, so today I’m gonna share my thoughts and experiences with the Four of Coins tarot card. I’ve been messing around with tarot for a while now, not like a pro or anything, just for fun and a little self-reflection. The Four of Coins always seemed kinda…stuck, you know?
First off, I pulled this card like, a lot. Seriously, anytime I was asking about my finances or even just how I was feeling in general, BAM, there it was. At first, I just glossed over it, thinking, “Okay, I get it, I’m being stingy.” But then I decided to actually dig into what it really meant for me.
So, I started by actually looking at the card. You got this dude, sitting on a box, clutching a coin, with coins on his head and feet. Like, dude, chill! My first thought was hoarding. I was definitely holding onto things, not just money, but ideas and old grudges too.
My initial reaction: Gotta loosen up! Gotta let go! Easy peasy, right? Wrong.
What I did was look at my spending habits. I mean, I wasn’t exactly broke, but I was definitely hesitant to spend money on anything that wasn’t essential. I would cut coupons and spend ages comparing prices. Which, okay, is responsible, but it was getting obsessive. I wasn’t enjoying things because I was too busy worrying about the cost.
Then, I realized it wasn’t just about money. It was about control. I was clinging to routines, to the way I thought things should be, and resisting any kind of change. This was making me super stressed. I was so afraid of losing what I had, I wasn’t actually living.
The “Aha!” moment: I needed to figure out WHY I was so scared. What was I really afraid of losing?
I started journaling. Sounds cheesy, I know, but it helped. I started writing down all the things I was worried about. Losing my job, not being good enough, all that jazz. And then I started challenging those thoughts. Were they really true? What was the worst that could happen? What could I do to prevent those things from happening? Like, taking small steps to be in control, without being consumed by it.
One thing I did was start small. I forced myself to buy something I wanted, not needed. A new book, a fancy coffee, something that would make me happy without breaking the bank. It felt weird at first, like I was being irresponsible. But then I realized, hey, I can enjoy things without my world falling apart.
Small steps: Breaking the cycle of restriction.
I’m still working on it, of course. I still have moments where I feel the urge to hoard and control. But now, when I see that Four of Coins, it’s not just a warning sign. It’s a reminder to check in with myself, to see what I’m holding onto and why. And to remember that sometimes, letting go is the bravest thing you can do.
So, here’s my takeaway:
- The Four of Coins isn’t just about money. It’s about control, fear, and clinging to the familiar.
- It’s important to understand WHY you’re holding on so tight.
- Small steps can break the cycle.
- Letting go can be scary, but it can also be liberating.
Hope this helps someone else who’s struggling with this card! Let me know your own experiences in the comments!
