Alright, let’s talk about working with the Tower card. Not exactly the cozy, feel-good card most people hope for, right? But I had this period where everything felt… wobbly. Like standing on shaky ground. Instead of just waiting for something to crash down, I decided to actually engage with that Tower energy myself.
Getting Started
First thing I did was pull the Tower card out from my main deck. Didn’t do a full spread, just wanted that one card. I propped it up on my desk where I could see it all day. Stared at it quite a bit, letting the imagery sink in – the lightning, the falling figures, the crumbling structure. Wasn’t trying to force any deep meaning, just getting familiar, letting it sit there.
The ‘Shaky Structures’ List
Then, I grabbed a notebook. Simple stuff. I decided to make a list. Title was something like “My Personal Towers”. Sounds dramatic, maybe, but it helped frame it. I started writing down things in my life that felt unstable, built on weak foundations, or just plain false. This included:
- Certain beliefs I held about myself that didn’t feel true anymore.
- A friendship that had been strained for ages, held together by habit.
- My ridiculously cluttered home office – felt like a physical representation of mental chaos.
- A specific work project that felt doomed from the start but everyone was pretending was fine.
Just writing it down felt like doing something. Acknowledging the cracks instead of painting over them.
Taking Action (The Scary Part)
Looking at that list, I knew just seeing it wasn’t enough. The Tower demands action, disruption. So, I picked one thing I could actually tackle immediately: the cluttered office. It felt symbolic.
I spent a whole weekend just gutting that room. Not just tidying – I mean really clearing out. Old papers, broken equipment, stuff I hadn’t touched in years. Bag after bag went out. It was exhausting, physically and mentally. Felt like I was tearing down a mini-tower right there.
Next, I tackled the friendship. Had that awkward, difficult conversation. Didn’t try to “fix” it, just spoke honestly about how I felt things were. It wasn’t a huge blow-up, more like a quiet crumbling. We agreed to give each other space. It was sad, but also a relief. The pretense dropped.
The work project? I started speaking up more honestly in meetings about the problems I saw. Didn’t make me popular, let me tell you. But it shifted the dynamic. Others started admitting the issues too. It didn’t magically save the project, but the fake optimism died, which was necessary.
What Happened Next
Nothing exploded overnight. There wasn’t one giant lightning strike moment like on the card. It was more like a series of controlled demolitions, things I initiated myself based on looking at that Tower card and my list.
What I found was, by facing the shaky stuff proactively, the potential ‘crash’ felt less terrifying. It wasn’t happening to me out of the blue; I was participating in the necessary breakdown.
The office cleanup genuinely made my head feel clearer. The friendship ending, while tough, freed up emotional energy. Speaking up at work, though uncomfortable, felt more authentic.
So, my practice wasn’t about avoiding the Tower, but about meeting its energy head-on, on my own terms where possible. It meant taking responsibility for the unstable structures in my own life and starting the teardown myself, rather than waiting for external forces to do it for me. It’s still not my favorite card, but I respect it a hell of a lot more now. It’s about truth, even when it’s disruptive as hell.
