Okay, so today I’m gonna ramble about my little tarot experiment I did last night. It’s all about the reversed Tower card. Buckle up, it’s gonna be a bit of a ride!
First off, I’ve been messing around with tarot for a while, nothing serious, just for funsies and maybe a little bit of self-reflection. The Tower card? Man, that thing is always a bit scary. Upright, it screams chaos and sudden change. Reversed? Well, opinions are all over the place. Some say it’s avoided disaster, others say it’s internal turmoil bubbling up.
So, last night I was feeling kinda stuck, like I was in a rut. My job’s been dragging, my motivation’s in the toilet, and I just felt blah. I thought, “Hey, why not pull a card and see if the universe has any spicy advice?” I shuffled my deck, focusing on my feelings of being stuck, and BAM! Reversed Tower. Great.
My first reaction was to groan. But then I thought, okay, let’s dig into this. I started by just writing down what came to mind. “Stagnation,” “avoiding change,” “fear of the unknown,” “inner conflict”… all that jazz. Then, I started thinking about the areas of my life where I felt the most stuck.
My job was the obvious one. I’ve been putting off applying for new positions because the thought of updating my resume and going through interviews just felt exhausting. I realized that maybe the reversed Tower was telling me I was actually clinging to this dead-end job because I was scared of the upheaval of finding something new. I jotted that down.
Then, I thought about my creative projects. I’ve got a couple of half-finished stories gathering dust, and I’ve been telling myself I’ll get back to them “someday.” But “someday” never comes, does it? The reversed Tower hit me with the realization that I’m probably avoiding finishing them because I’m afraid they won’t be good enough. Fear of failure, plain and simple.
After that brain dump, I decided to try something a little different. I figured, alright, if the Tower’s reversed, maybe the solution is to try and “reverse” my actions, too. Like, instead of avoiding change, embrace it. Instead of hiding from my fears, face them head-on.
So, I made a mini-action plan. First, I spent an hour updating my resume. It sucked, but I did it. Then, I picked one of my stories and wrote 500 words, no editing, just getting the words on the page. It wasn’t great, but it was something. I felt a little bit lighter afterwards, like I’d actually broken free from something.
Honestly? I don’t know if it “worked” in some mystical, tarot-y sense. But it did get me to stop wallowing in my own blah-ness and actually take some small steps forward. I wouldn’t say I had a massive epiphany or anything, but it was a good kick in the pants.
The biggest takeaway for me was that the reversed Tower, at least in my case, wasn’t about avoiding disaster. It was about recognizing that I was creating my own little disasters by avoiding necessary changes and hiding from my own fears. It was a reminder that sometimes, you gotta tear down those old structures, even if it’s scary, to build something new.
Will I do it again? Probably. It’s a good way to force myself to think critically about my life and to actually do something instead of just complaining. Plus, it’s kinda fun. Give it a try sometime. Maybe you’ll discover something about yourself, too!
